Forgive, yes - Forget?.......

If you are of a certain age you may remember a WWII movie starring Audie Murphy, my Dad's hero, "TO HELL AND BACK". Hombre, 2008 was HELL and mostly now back, but not so sure even now.....See prior post on my brother Roberto's double lung transplant and eventual 8 month hospital vacation fighting for his life; then my 24 yr. old son assaulted and stabbed in Wilmington by a crack-head - the miracle is that they are both in good shape. The bad news is that my nerves are shot to "Hell". It started w/ an anxiety attack when Roberto was a few days out of surgery and then became darkness about the time Thomas was attacked.

Winston Churchill would call it the "Black dog" and shoo it away with scotch; me I just keep pushing that 1 hr. drive to and back from DC and the 11 hours in between - three years now - toughest assignment of my life. There was a time when I thought of myself as a change-agent,and invincible - very clear on my purpose; then I encountered the mother of all organizational challenges. I just transpired through one of those lifetime events: late Oct/Nov I was visited by the "Black Dog" and he would not leave, not fun sleeping 2 hours a night for a month plus - the mind begins to do things....I found people who were protecting me and I also found some that wanted to annihilate me; glad to forgive, tough to forget. I am myself again, mostly, ready to take us up in 2009 - 25 yrs. riding this horse, I plan on charging into the mass and laying waste and destruction on the competition, but first things first.....I hate to tell you this, but not everyone wants you or your team to succeed, not your fault how they feel, just a reality on the darker side of the envious, the small, the irrelevant. Funny how most people choose their lot through their behaviors - we know this as the leadership model, people will not act inconsistent with their beliefs, then a result is produced, and sometimes it is a negative result - pity.


In the final analysis, your attitude determines your effectiveness in everything, every time! LGL

Pain.....

Sometimes it just RAINS!

Pain and suffering - but it will be overcome

In the final analysis, your attitude determines your effectiveness in everything, every time! LGL

The end of suffering....

It has now been one year since my brother Roberto received his double-lung transplant, a miracle unto itself. He has been in the hospital now nearly 7 months beyond initial rehab due to complications too numerous to name, yet he lives. My mother and sister are his most constant companions as the rest of us live states away. The pain, the anxiety of any new development, coupled with the daily living issues associated with work, family, time....I am so grateful to my wife Debbie and my children for providing solace in the storm. My own self-doubt, my own "little faith" with God's will, my fear - these have been my companions this past year. It is very difficult to compartmentalize your life, for me anyway. So the entire experience of Roberto's suffering, my own struggles, and the realization that life is short and unhappiness can not be long-term; they all congregate (to quote Harry Truman)to "fall on you like the earth, the sun and all the stars". All of this will pass and where tomorrrow leads.....BUT, we will push and drive and persevere, because that is what got us here! Gracias Papi, we remember you on your 14th anniversary this Monday - Costa Rica's Independence Day, he showed us how!